'endless love'

i give up a lot, and i just gave up my new york diary thing. i just couldn't keep up with it.

but i really really really strongly want to go back.

gwendolyn told me i use the word 'fuck' a lot, and i was thinking, it's because i update my blog whenever i really dont want to do my homework or stressed. so yeah

gwendy, when you read this thats the reason. but i think i do use that word occasionally.

p.s. picture of the day:

In New York,

concrete jungles where dreams are made of there's nothing you can't do now you're in New York.


Day 1,
waking up at 3 in the morning and going to LAX, where a lady gave us major attitude and where we met this cute old lady who didn't know where she was going. going on a small, or a plane that we thought was super small, and sleeping in it the whole ride. getting off at philadelphia and transiting on to the smallest airplane which carried around thirty people.
it was a ghetto ride.
we met our auntie and uncle and had dinner that my mom loved, and went to manhattan and saw bunch of tall buildings and took pictures in the light and drank two dollar coffee from starbucks as always.
yeah, that was the end of the day. i found out i didnt bring any of my homework fuck my life.

Day 2,
woke up hearing our uncle brought us Dunkin' Donut for breakfast, then got ready to go out and check parsons up. parsons is So Much Better Than Otis. yes it was even though i couldn't go inside of the school at parsons. then went to see statue of liberty, and used my wide lens fisheye for the first time. it was great the weather was great and photography was great.
i'm just waitin for yum yum dinner.

tomorrow i'm going to RISD and Boston. fuck yes

funny you.

Vanitas from charlotte cornaton on Vimeo.

Long Time No See, Eh?

hmph hmph hmph

havent blogged for like the longest time of my life. or not my life but yeah for a pweetty long time.

nothings great, i feel like i dont belong anywhere. not even church school or home. maybe just a little coffee shop that no one would care if i just sit and do my own little imagination thingys. lifes not great unless i'm sleeping.

past few month since school started i found out im the most awkward person to be with if i dont know some people too much. or i meet them in the streets. so just to let you know its not that i dont like you or im really pissed, i just dont know what to say.

i would write so many things but as always i'm fucking lazy.

pictures should be up by december. i hope.

p.s. yes yes yes yes yes my crappy/cheapy fisheye lens is coming soon and i really really cant wait. seattle is really going to be great if i could take pictures and see pjb there. i wouldnt wish for anything else.

itz tha weekend.

being lazy is the worst thing ever, i hate hate hate it. but i cant help it.
i just finished the second disc of house season five. its so great but kinda sucks that i cant concentrate when i watch it on my computer.
i am so easily distracted.

i cant paint anymore. help.

p.s. lifes boring, theres nothing fun to do anymore and it sucks.

i luv thurzdayz

36 Skaters Make Downhill Neon Video Game w/ Freebords @ Yahoo! Video

only if the lights were brighter.

i dont like asian grapes.

i want a weekend like this again. i know i'm a junior, the busyiest and hardest year for everyone, but oh wells, screw that i believe in luck.

p.s. i did not know tie-dying was this hard. we need visual examples.

yay for all-nighters

this is what procrastination brings to me.


working on project and an essay in one fucking night.





oh joy!

whered you go

i havent updated for a long time.
school has started and i met everyone who i missed and all the bullshit started.

things fly by real fast. like a wind or like a raindrop.

i miss it. i miss this. i miss you.

pop pop pop

Music Painting by JUL & MAT from JUL & MAT on Vimeo.

there's always something inside anything.

summer is almost over and i haven't had any fun.

and i havent taken out bejamin anywhere fun yet.
my parents wont let me take him out anywhere until i get my bag.

p.s. i miss all of them, but they changed so much.

i want to watch harry potter.

things are just not getting any better.
my life is fucking depressing.

reasonable? unreasonable?

i'm suppose to write my essay for practice sat, but i dont fucking get the fucking prompt. so i'm pretty much screwed.

i've been going out too much these days and i shouldnt, but its not affecting me that much so yeah yayay party time! my weekends are full and i want more weekends. =(

Harry Potter is coming out this week, i REALLY wanted to watch the midnight show, but -_- i doubt that its going to happen, maybe i'll go on other midnights and make it feel like its like the first day, but just with less annoying ass people.

almost my license test! nervous nervous excited.

p.s. haaaappy birthday austin, its sweeeet seventeen.

STOP FUCKING ME WITH YOUR EYES.

lazy ass week. i hate holiday weekends.
so, academy until 5 and study after ruined my summer, but i think i like it because i never do anything during summer. now i only have 4 days or 8 days a month to play. yeepee.

i made an appointment yesterday for my license test, i hope i pass. or i HAVE to pass. i'm going to shoot myself i dont.

a big bee was making a house right front of my house today, or it did.
i'm scared to go outside now.

p.s. my room looks like shit already, and i just cleaned it like two weeks ago. my mom said it looks like a pig house.

i'm a beast when you turn me on.

hey angela, i'm being a lazy ass today and felt like leaving you a message on my blog so its public,
hehe my rants? what do you mean my rants? lol i miss you and your summer pictures are amazing, i'm jealous. i'm too lazy to upload my pictures. i love you angela, your funny.
love always salene.


its already july. i only got one and a half month of summer, and i feel like i havent done anything. my permit 'expired', i dont even know if i could pass my test shiet. sat is getting pain in the ass. i'm too lazy to memorize all these shit. art is not coming into me. i miss my school days. fml

but i still got so many weekends to have fun.

p.s. and i' definitely going to disneyland on my birthday. i'm pretty desperate.

i gotta feelin'

that tonight's gonna be a good night!

actually no, today was pretty much the worst day ever since summer has started.

even though there were detentions at SAT academy, even though it was super hard to decide which art studio to go to, today was pretty bad.

i even watched transformers today. actually, that movie part was good.

i love shia and josh. period.

and i want a car that could talk to me, that would be awesome.

im actually talking to friends that i haven't talked to for a year now. im kind of proud of myself.

and i really miss my junior high school days.

i want to get old asap, and get a job, kids, and have memories to laugh at.

p.s. i really really hate the movies that is about the end of the world. it kills me. i like the old days when all the movies were about having robots and better life in the future, but now its all world coming to an end. its fucking stupid. its fucking annoying. they should fucking stop.

and i usually dont hate things, i dislike.

SQUIRREL!

hey friend, i missed you so much, and i miss you already

Tales of Earthsea

hey guess what, my sophomore year is over.

i experienced so many things this year, i don't think i would've experienced all these things if i stayed at where i was last year.  

i met so many people than i would in my normal life,

i found out there are so many different people in this world

and the world is always getting bigger and bigger every second.

oh and of course i changed a lot. i didn't know i could be a different person.

thank you all for helping me so much over the year,

and especially mom and dad, this wouldn't even happen if it wasn't them.

i can't wait for new year and more new experiences.

woohoo its summer!

shush gurrl shut your lips

http://www.amazon.com/House-M-D-Season-Hugh-Laurie/dp/B0024FAD8I
House MD seson five released on August 25????!?!!! A DAY BEFORE MY BIRTHDAY?! this could be the best! hhehehhee

what the fuck only 2 weeks?! damn.........

p.s. hakuna matata, it means no worries.. everything will go well, right?!

Romeo............................

Happy birthday my friend, kristin jang you're finally sixteen.

im on the plan of major procratination, but i cant give up.
if i want a car by my senior year, i gotta have good grades man.

p.s. i noticed i havent been praying often for this whole year.
i'm off to new start this summer.

why the fuck.........

you guys disgust me.

i'm just being honest you know.
i like being honest.

p.s. i'm pretty much dead, when the summer starts. i had confidence, but not anymore.

why don't you sit down and make me smile?

i want to go on a rocket and run away from this place. i will see the pretty stars, the hot hot sun, cool aliens, maybe that could be my dream: go on a rocket and travel the space and meet some alien friends and rule the world. aliens will treat me like i'm the shiet. that's the way to have fun.

major procrastination right now, i dont know what to do. i thought end of the year was suppose to be easy..... bunch of projects. shoot me now.

p.s. i cannot back up for shit. i doubt that i'm going to get a license.

I think I'm getting to know who Salene Jang is.

PLAN

grow my hair, healthier skin, less makeup, more pictures, more adventrues and more studying.

summer come, june come.

I HATE

life
homework
lab reports
nail polish that chips off
not having house in my life
spanish works
getting fat
attantion-whores
i-only-care-about-me friends
not having anywhere to take benjamin out
my license testing day
sat
staying up late
falling a sleep during class
awkward moments
not having anthing to talk about
long phone calls
fat

I LOVE

no fear shakespeare
my dying ipod
my pink nail polishes
my gel pens
good ol' movies
childhood movies/memories
black and white photography
benjamin
my lame dog
pretty rings
colorful bracelets
prada transformer
only polaroid picture i have
my new notebook going to use as a sketchbook
friends who listen
friends who talk
something entertaining
my imagination
and lastly, my favorite, my Mom

Pop It, Lock It, Polkadot It

back on normal schedule with school ending at 5.
I'm super tired, even though I haven't done studying or anything yet.

I'm into painting my nails and watching old movies that I don't remember watching,
I think I should go back to working out too, my body feels heavy.
School is ending soon, I'm so excited for it, but at the same time, I'm screwed. I'm doing really bad this semester. I'm super screwed. I hope everything goes well.

but I'm proud of myself, I'm not procrastinating. kind of, which is good.

p.s. I really need a job, all I could think about is what kind of easy job I could get, and I'm really scared about my grade. oh jimney cricket!

Do you hear me? I'm talkin to you

Boy I dont hear you.............

p.s. i miss loving my life. i forgot how it is to love life.

I dreamed a dream

Susan Boyle you are amazing
you made me cry

"did i DAZZLE you?"

i noticed, i changed so much over this year. i got so selfish and antisocial. i need to go back to old salene. but i kinda enjoy being alone and watching people and fallin in to my own world. i'm so antisocial.........

another driving lesson today. i went on the big street, i went from la palma to los alamitos. i think i got better. for second time driving. i need to practice more, i think i'm depending on my teacher too much.

Good Friday today. i skipped dinner, instead of fasting whole day. but i went out to eat at dolphin bay with friends after church. so i guess it doesnt even count. i feel like i havent been out with church friends in sucha long time. i kinda miss it.

spring breaks over in two days. i have an essay, two projects, and a lab due next week. and i got a test on monday. oh goody. i gotta finish them tomorrow so my rest of spring break goes well.

my spring break was nothing. it didnt even feel like a spring break. just longass sunday.

p.s. i was taking a shower and i remembered, we were suppose to get a class sweater for church last year or something. but we ended up not getting it. so i was thinking i should make one, and make people buy it. that would be really nice and i really want a class sweater.

beeeeehind the wheel.

my sister got a macbook today. it was her 15th birthday. oh lucky her.
and i want a macbook too. so i need a job. let's find me a job yeah?


p.s. i cant drive for shit. period.

Sing a Song

always, at this time of the year, i feel like i don't want to go to church anymore.
i hate it.

spring break. let's have some photoshoots Benjamin!
but shitload of things to do.

easter coming up. woohoo.

p.s. thank you eric for all these songs, i think i like them all.

MUST WATCH

Fast and Furious
Slumdog Millionaire
Transformers II
The Soloist
X-Men Origins: Wolverine

it's the movie month!

p.s. Zoolander and Sweeney Todd, also.

oh gee

last episodes of boys over flower this week =(

p.s. no kdramas until IRIS

Wonderful Cross 2009

back from retreat.
very different from other retreats,
got to talk a lot, laugh a lot, drink a lot, but didn't cry much.

met new people, opened myself up, got close with people.
i got sick at retreat for once. this never happens, my throat still hurts.

small group was little different from past retreats, or maybe it's just me
i think we had pretty good talks, i learned a lot.

cabin was funny, didn't get to sleep with whoever we want, but it was not that bad.
my bunk buddy, michelle yoo, she was oh so cute and funny.
"Hi I'm Michelle" "Hey everybody!" lmfao

coming back home, i felt like throwing up in the bus, that was my first time too. weird.

when we arrived here we went to eat pho with friends, haven't had pho in a long ass time.
waited for my mam to come pick us up, the place smelled like fish and crap.

thats my weekend, pretty legit huh.

now i got to study for world history test and work on chem project. hope my lab people sent me the info.

p.s. philip, your house is fucking big. im jealous. i asked my mom if we could move.

2012? Bull Shit

this week's a hell, i don't know if i should go to the reatreat anymore, but i feel like i have to go.
2 hours of sleep is not working with me.


p.s. world, you are not ending until my kids die.

Sex and the Villy

LMFAO

Gouache

i quit painting. i hate painting. fuck painting.
going back to pencil, less headaches and more fun


CAHSEE test today and tomorrow, i was falling a sleep and my essay was horrible. how the fuck am i suppose to write about a person who makes the community better... i made up a president, it was really bad. but can't wait for the math test, i hope it isn't that hard.

a lil bit a somethin' , i miss winter.

p.s. Angelina Jolie and Matt Damon, i trust you guys. and i quit painting.

gee

going back to visit cypress = going back to a fob.

rough cut

a lot of people i miss come out in my dream, even people that i don't miss. but none of their face is in it, i dont even hear their voice.
i feel like i'm missing something really important.

it's spring, or the weather feels like it's summer, i hate it; there should be at least some cold wind.

p.s. i feel fake, where is the real me.

bang bang bang

shoooot chu in yo head.

beach was pretty interesting except for the fucking melted marshmallow part.

oh shiet, i was not thinking of my grade this whole quater. i need to raise all of them.

p.s. oh, boys over flower, i can't wait!

i want a tablet

Thursday is over now. and it's Friday already! (= yay!

my art turned out fuckn ugly today, and I'm really disappointed. and I don't know where my artist journal went...........fuck................ i'm having pretty much a bad day, i got sick, and my throat hurts. my voice sounds lower and its digusting. and i have to go to school tomorrow just because i need to be there for algebra lecture. my mom doesn't want to drop me off during lunch.

i was using photoshop since i haven't used it since like a year ago, i forgot a lot of things, and i really want tablet right now, mouse does not work for me.

Modbook, i don't know if it's out or not, but still deciding between mac and pc. i just want a normal tablet. i should find a cheap one on amazon or something=)

p.s. my computer is obnoxiously bright and contrasty, i don't know what happened. it's hurting my eyes...........

I decided.

I'm going to be skinny.

25 random sheeeet.

i was tagged to many of these on facebook, i felt like doing it, but i didn't want to post it up on facebook.


1. i think sleep comes first than studying when i have tests.

2. shiet i'm going to be a junior. and i'm going to be 18 next year. wow.

3. i used to be a really good reader. i had books about science and always read it ovre and over. but now i barely read.

4. i HATE fobs talking to me in korean out loud. even though i am one of them. weird.

5. i used to be SO good at games. i had a gameboy COLOR and played pokemon everyday, nintendo 64, playstation. but i recently found out i SUCK at games now. funny, and my eyes got bad because of all the games i played.

6. i am a bitch to people i hate. i am an angel to people i love. and some people could tell.

7. new year resolution: make more friends at ochsa. LMFAO, michelle (;

8. i love sad movies and watching it by myself, crying like a little kid. i also love action movies and smart movies that dumbfound me.

9. i am a perfectionist in some way except cleaning my room.

10. i love love drawing, even though my friends say wtf is that. i think they are pretty (: i like drawing in general (except painting), finishing a art piece is so fun, love having concentration. the only time i concentrate.

11. i listen to all kinds of music. except some annoying ones. but if i listen to something too much i never go back to it.

12. BENJAMIN <3<3<3<3 my baby.

13. ritz bits cheese, teddy graham crackers, captain crunch, lucky charms!

14. i NEED breakfast. i need food every day.

15. i love math. i love chemistry. i think calculating numbers is so much fun.

16. i'm weird.

17. i am not a good conversation person. you lead me, i'll make a comment about each things you say. BUT i love listening to stories and any thing. i am a good listener just because i forget things easily.

18. my contact list and itune needs to be neat. but i try to ignore the neatness now.

19. i used to live in japan and not know any single korean word. but i knew that i'm korean, just didn't care about it. and now i'm such a fob.

20. i get into a lot of shit with people some how. and i hate apologizing i dont think they deserve it.

21. i forget things really easily. just right now i was going to write something so i wrote ' i love to go' and forgot what i was going to write.

22. i was a really quiet and a shy girl around people when i was young. and now i'm like one of the loudest person aorund.

23. i feel bad asking for money to my parents. so i need to find a job.

24. i think House is the best show i've ever watched. Hugh Laurie<3

25. i think about weird things that wont even happen and hope that will happen.

i think i have more to write about but too much about salene in one entry.

almost 4day weekend! Coraline and Push with michelle! and shopping and photo taking and hang outs with old friends. fun fun.

p.s. kkotboda namja episode 12, is so so so so cute. i'm going to watch it all over again tonight.

Snow!

i saw pretty mountains today covered with white snows!

oh joy this week will be busy but fun! i loved the holga pictures i printed today, pretty pretty. and i could take some more this weekend! i have chemistry test and alg2trig test retake Wednesday and Thursday): but today is monday, happy day. i'm actually trying on my math homework too.

i LOVED the weather today after school, it felt like it snowed but it's sunny, like in big bear. i hope its like that tomorrow.

four day weekend come fast. i want to watch movies and shop and take pictures.

p.s. i feel like i'm back again, thankyou. i love you.

rain drops are fallin' on my head

rain rain rain oh good ol' rain

clara's party was yesterday, it was pretty fun but really awkward. mh, at least i got to see michellek in a dress. that is like once in a life time thing to see. my foot really hurts, and it's the bone that's sticking out, it never hurt this much before. i hope my foot hurts this whole week so i could get a elevator pass =)

after the party i went to kristin's house and we had a talk, that was the fun part (=
and i'm in love with hugh laurie.

p.s. benjamin, we're getting better every single day. we could practice everyday.

good ol' rain

i met a cute nordstrom shoe place worker today he was super nice =) i'm so fckin tired and have little bit more homeworkd to do, i don't get algebra for the first time this year.

the rain make me miss old days so much, a lot of memories come back with the rain. i'm back to House, i love love love love Hugh Laurie, cute old man =)

it's finally Friday tomorrow! yayay hope its not too cold tomorrow, i'm going to need something warm ,

well more algerbra to do
love always.

p.s. RIP park sang min, Happy Birthday.

Boys Over Flower

very asian, fob, loser thing to say but i go through the week just for this.

and today is tuesday, it feels like days are going by really slow, but if tomorrow comes, it will feel like the week is going by pretty fast. i can't wait til the holga pictures, oh i feel like taking out benjamin tomorrow even though i know i wont get any good pictures.

p.s. my cold sores went away and came back, and it got even bigger. and friday became a bitch.

kaethe kollwitz's war diary

i just saw my history worksheet, bunch of readings to do, agh

i noticed, i have a 'hate' and 'love' list, in myself. its either i love or i hate, i don't have something between. and i show too much of that, i will fix it; somehow. i'm pretty much hating school these days, i'm getting lazy with all my homework maybe tomorrow i will not be procrastinating. day dreaming and thinking while i'm blanking out is a every second thing now, i realized i'm staring at empty space or some one's face not even concentrating on anything. i've changed a lot.

today is monday, i am not excited too much sneak peek over the weekend.
i will just finish my history homework and sleep, i hate the cold sores in my mouth, they annoy me a lot.

p.s. i missed Gossip Girls for a month, i need to go back to it. and House. and Friends.

why,

why are people so not responsible,
it's good to be responsible of your own work and life, but you got to care about people around you. i admire your hard works and how you try to make everything work, but all those things are just for you, not for the others. just think about it, its not just other people who ruined it, you were part of it too. you disappoint me.

i didn't do any of my homework this weekend. i don't feel like doing any of them. i'll pull an all-nighter tomorrow. and just be a lazy fat ass today :)

p.s. Monday, hurry up and come. you are my favorite day of the week now.
Tuesday, hurry up and come. you are also my favorite day of the week.
Fiday, oh Friday, just can't wait <3 <3 <3

i think i got everything

i wouldnt regret if i die tomorrow, i feel like i experienced enough things without that much pain. i am doing what i love to do everyday, whenever i want; i have people who i care about; i know people who i feel thankful for; i've met people who changed my life; i have lost people who i trusted; i have felt left out; i have art pieces that i love; i've done photography in a actual dark room that i always saw in the tv; i met people who knew my friends somehow; i've failed my essay; i learned what is outside of my life; i came to america living in japan; i have friends that i don't even talk to anymore; i learned new words; i learned how to hate people; i learned how to ignore people; i learned how to fight and never go back to that person; i made friends who live two hours away from me; i am able to put make up on without my mom's complain; fought with my mom; love my mom, lied, stole; i failed the permit test; i passed the permit test; i've broken all the earphones i have; i go to school where i can't be myself, but do what i like to do; fake myself, and probably more that i can't go back to, i can't regret what i did in the past. i can't even fix anything i did in the past. but i am going to feel more pain than what i experienced for sixteen years, and i am going to hate everything until my life gets settled. i wouldn't regret if i die tomorrow, because i will be in the bed crying more in the future.

but i still have a dream that makes me happy, with the job i love, college that i want to go to, car that i want, being with people who makes me happy. the reason why i like to live, because the future that is waiting for me.

love always

pop pop pop!

i'm starting to get sick of school. i'm really lazy about everything, and i failed all my finals, i don't look forward to this weekend. i hate trying to act not myself at school, i miss the days i was able to act like i dont give a shit everyday. after school started, i thought everything would get better, but i dont think it did; everything got worse, i don't even talk to anyone from my old school, well not that often, i am so behimd with my close friends, we can't even update ourselves because we are all so busy with our own stuff.

i try to be positive all the time, it's just i can't organize myself through all these busy things going on.
i'm going to LOVE the month of february, only four weeks of school with 4 day weekend(= i'm looking forward to that oh and clara baby's sweet sixteen party(; and dear unni's eighteenth birthday, oh shit she's old, it's such a relieve to think about what's coming up!

and february goes by fast, then it's march, month of hell, no no school days, with all the studyings for cst and highschool exit exam or whatever, that's going to kill me. still i think i have retreat that month? it's so late, makes me mad retreat when its really hot, oh well i hope i could look forward to it.
soon to be done with school, and soon to be getting my license! yayay but no car ):

Oh, i saw the news, a mother with eight twins, shit, shes like a baby popping machine pop pop pop. i cant believe i'm actually living the year with so many things happening.

i really hope everything gets better with me and people around me.

good day

it was nice talking to you again, even though it was supershort.

I'm done with my finals, and can't wait til second semester, today's tests were not that hard, only grade I'm worried about is history and chemistry which i didn't study at all and i blanked out when the test came in front of me. But oh well, it's past and i can't get it back. i had pinkberry today, finally, i was cravin pinkberry this whole week. i went to the main place mall today, didn't want to shop at all for some reason. But had good time with my mom, and she didn't even get mad at me for any reason today.
what a good day, and three days weekend without any homework.

I'm lovin my short hair, i don't even regret cutting it, weird.
I just hope second semester to be easier, I love the conservatory classes that I'm taking.

I HATE

going back to the past, looking through old pictures, thinking about old days.
it could be real fun if i think about something fun, but when i look back, most of the time im hating my life.
i found out i had so many shits around me this week,
they should go away soon, when i find something fun to think about.

finals week is this week, i only have finals for my history and spanish classes, i hate both of them. i should study my ass off and get good grades and play second semester.
and i'll have the best memories of the year, since 2009 is starting nice.

PS. it was good seeing you and talking to you today ashley (; we have to go play soon love you beb

First week of 2009,

kind of, or first week of school from break,
was not that bad i actually had fun at school and i am not really stressing out. it was weird not having camp OCHSA, going home early and having time to do my homework on tuesdays, i don't even miss my little annoying kids. i didn't really have that much homework this week, and i probably wont this whole time until the finals, yayay. i dont think my finals are that bad except history, which i need to study like hell.

well, i'm lovin my camera and can't wait til we go on field trip during photo class and take pictures! its so cool i take pictures of random things with this camera haha.

Oh, I went to dmv again on this friday, and still couldn't get my permit. I was waiting for my number to come and I only had to wait like 10 more people, which would go pretty fast, and all the sudden people told every one to evacuate from the building, and firetrucks come and took forever for them to go away. I don't even know what the fuck happened. and that took forever so i just went back home. and I need my permit to drive, and my parents like so lazy to give me a ride, i can't even go out that often now. and it's going to take forever for me to go back to dmv, and i'm thinking of just making an appointment so it makes everything faster.

I cut my hair on Saturday, its not short but its not an awkward length. i think i should cut shorter, but my mom said i'll regret it. so yeah, i need to get extensions now just in case i want my long hair back. people said i'll hate having short hair, but i acutally don't, it doesn't even look different.

I just remebered I have so much to do, since I was so lazy yesterday. Oh and we have Art show and Fashion Show this week I can't wait.

Joy

its Saturday, almost done with break. i thought my break would be so busy and fun, but i decided to stay home like a good girl, just because i didn't want to disappoint my parents and because i got my camera (: i was so close to returning it because i was really really moody and bitch to my parents last week, but everything turned out fine, and I'm being a good girl listening to my parents.

i love the camera, its just I'm so afraid of bringing it outside. or its just my parents scared that i wont take good care of the camera. its a camera, we're suppose to bring it outside to take pictures. my dad tells me that i have to practice taking pictures to get better, but he's the one not letting me bring it outside. and I'm the one who takes photography. oh well though, i will listen to my dad until he gets sick of complaining about my camera.

Thursday was new years day, my new years started pretty nice compare to last year. we celebrated new years eve and did count down at the park's house with our beloved friends, i tired to explain what we did that night to my mom, but i found out we barely did anything but be good kids and take pictures and play with a baby and watch movie. well in the morning we're all suppose to go to church even though we all tired, and i took mass with my parents, i haven't taken mass with parents in a long time, and my mom was like falling a sleep. then we went to eat at this major Chinese restaurant with this one family who speak Chinese, it was alright, not too bad. then my family and i went to the beach like what we do every year (: we went to Santa Monica this year. and we took pictures with my new camera, and we fooled around with self-timer continuous thing. people passing by were like laughing at us. i bet they were thinking "oh freaking Asian family with their camera" haha but a fun day (:

I found joy this week, even though i barely did anything. i got so many things and i found out so many things. oh i got my permit finally, i started my drivers ed last year just about this time, and now i got my permit haha what a lazy ass. and i finally watched Benjamin Button, such a good movie. i cried as usual, and i could watch it again. i learned things in that movie, somehow. (: i want to watch Marley & Me and Bedtime Stories. maybe tomorrow before break ends. i was just angry about our retreat not being on winter. i like cold retreats more cuddling. oh well i hope our spring ones good, or it better be.

i was thinking of doing my homework and working on my finals things this break like a good asian girl, but i ended up not doing anything. i haven't finished my homework yet, I'm not even sure whats my homework and whats not. ah, all nighters for today, i bet my moms going to get mad at me.

So this break was nothing just a long usual weekend with two holidays. i was a good girl and didnt go out too much, didn't do anything bad (: hope school will be fine, not too stressful. i cant wait till all these homework and finals, ugh